It has been a long time since the last post of me writing a journal. Or at least a story to be shared. For the time that had passed, I was only trying to be such a poet. But perhaps, I flunked. But I hope, in the eye of Allah s.w.t. I am not yet a failure. Not yet.
Subhanallah. The semester break is coming to an end, in a few minutes I am gonna leave JB and heading back to KL. Pretty much settle up for things there before the real hectic semester will finally, START!. Nothing much to hope. But indeed, I shall have my own resolution to be accomplished within this 4 months approximately.
To work. To get more money. To reduce those fats on me. To do good in studies! To manage time wisely. To participate in cool da'wa programs or any programs. and the list goes on. (cita-cita, usaha, doa)
Talking about results? Alhamdulillah. Nothing much to be commented on. I am so much thankful for whatever Allah has ever gave and to ze lecturers. You are all the best and awesome people. Really looking forward to learn more, eventhou I know, those bumpy roads would bring me to tears and rip me out, burn my fats, even made my eyes looked like a panda or turned me into a ZOMBIE. A muslimah Zombie :)
It is not cute okay.
Back to the topic again.
Alhamdulillah, I don't know what got into me tonight. Finally I have the urge to write properly and share some Ibrahs or thoughts that I had in my mind for as long as I have been konon-konon trying to isolate myself. Which turned out to be, NOT that failed but not that SUCCEED as well. :D
Before I went for the "long" semester break, I joined a Mukhayyam.
Being an ignorant me before, who knows nothing about the beauty of "Dunia Tarbiyyah", Mukhayyam is one of a new thing and really really one of a kind. Trust me!
Mukhayyam Khoriji is somewhat macam outdoor activities lah. We went for a one week camp to see whether, we can really apply those "syllabus" that has been given in Usrah well or not. But basically, or shall I say, honestly, my very first intention of joining this, bukanlah atas paksaan mana-mana pihak. So, I don;t look at attending this program as a HARSH thing to do while I should be SLEEPING at home. Na'ah.
Alhamdulillah for that.
I am looking forward for every courses that can somehow put me again, next to GOD. Even if its the littlest bite, I really wanna taste the sweetness. As a weak hamba I am, I need these supplements to keep on and maintained the momentum, or else? Nak tunggu naik semester baru bercinta semula dengan Allah dan Rasulnya? Mahu jatuh tersengguk saya even before I even start to make a step.
Tak MAHU lagi begitu!
I shall always put actions to the words that I preached right?
Tampal pada dahi,
"MANUSIA SELURUH ALAM MAMPU BERIKAN KATA SEMANGAT PADA KITA, BUT AT ONE POINT, MANUSIA SELURUH ALAM WILL GET TIRED! and HANYA ADA SEORANG MANUSIA DI ALAM INI YANG MAMPU MERUBAH HIDUP KITA... and when you look like nobody else is there, IT IS ALWAYS YOU who can make the change and should be the change!"
Okay back to the Mukhayyam ; Youth Outdoor Quest 2012.. YOQ'12 yang super awesome brought up the theme of Sirah Rasulullah s.w.t.
and telling you the truth, I don't expect that the Ibrah or such pengajaran from the camp terkesan sehinggalah ke hari ini. That is why, I don't go update my blog with YOQ'12 stuffs right after the camp, because I want to see some changes in me. If this camp really had put such an impact to me, mestilah dah habis camp berminggu-minggu sekalipun, I still can share the thoughts right?
Terpahat dalam hati sanubari. Walaupun mungkin amalnya masih comot lagi :)
Dengan ada seorang hamba Allah yang menegur tentang Sunnah nabi yang makan penuh sopan dan duduk, sedangkan saya makan berdiri pada waktu itu. Sangat menghentak jiwa raga. Mari baca sini ...
okay alamak, tak sempat tulis lagi. Dah kena bersiap. Beg tak kemas lagi.
Nanti saya kemas kinii okay.